My "wants" for attention
This blog post is not discoverable. I don't think this, and my other blog posts, were ever intended to have an audience to begin with.
Ever since I started enabling the discoverable feature for Bear Blog, I've been writing less, as my posts would not gain as much attention. This invisible pressure would also make me feel isolated, and it's ironic because this blog platform isn't designed for fame at all, so why would I feel this way?
I think it's because, even though Bear Blog is an amazing but small blogging platform, there's still a sense of community. You can discover all kinds of blogs if you so choose to, and that's what I'd do from time to time. Some blogs would have so many toasts, and others not so much. My blogs would get over some amount of toasts, and the rest would only get one interaction.
It's hard for me to remember things, but the times I'd just write in here as if it were a diary or journal, that was when I'd feel more motivated to write. As my blog is very eclectic, there's really no reason for me to "want attention" with whatever I publish here.
I want to make blogging something fun, something to write whatever I feel needs to get off my chest and to explore things and share them here so I can look back at them later. I also want to use blogging as a way to help improve my writing skills. So, for now, I am disabling the discovery features, and I will see how this goes.
